All my affairs are still in such confusion – that as yet I have not been able to think of doing what I so enjoy, namely, being with you – Perhaps today or tomorrow, but certainly the day after tomorrow at latest I shall be with you – The most wretched, most commonplace and unpoetical scenes surround me – and make me peevish – And in spite of all the kindnesses of the Countess I shall have to fill to the brim the measure of my lack of modesty by asking for another kindness, namely, to have one of her pianofortes in my room just for a few days.. For Schanz has sent me such a bad one that he will soon have to take it back again. And I don’t like to send out to you his instrument which I cannot keep – In haste, all my best wishes to the dear, kind Countess – I am far from deserving all that; and my embarrassment becomes all the greater when I wonder how I am going to make it up to her –
Your friend
Beethoven